I'm torturing myself here.. Can't you see I'm Bleeding?

Assalamualaikum....

Hmmm.... This is my first day in second semester in KLMU...and what a suprise! I wasted a lot of money to come to class and my class got postponed! Wow what a damn waste of time.. Hmmm... Like always, I cant get through day without singing! So, I went to karaoke and wasted money there. Stupid as always. Something else happen but I guess its too naive to said it out loud here.

Ok times up! I need to get my mood pumped up! So, I called my friend to come down and listen to me playing my guitar and suddenly I had this feeling of uncomfortable when I saw her.... Haihhhhh... Its too hard to forget about something you dying to get and lost it along the way.. I hate this feeling man.. Feel like I am a total idiot try to chase something that I will never get.
I played my act of not care but everyone know I care... Its hard to hide that kind of feeling. I guess I need A LOT of time to get over this. I hope this will be over sooner than I think.

Well... I look back at the different angle and saw a few mistakes that i made... For sure, It was me all along who always acted stupid at the wrong place and at the wrong time... This might be hurting her a lot.. She got a lot of problem and I just add another problem for her to think..
Its normal for her to act like she did to me, for I am acting kind of crazy because of this unrequited dreams... which already shattered her heart and mine too..

BUT!!!!

I know its hurting you but its KILLING me...!!

Hmmm... I guess thats all for today.. I think this can be enough to ease the pain on my shoulder..
Never blame her..please... For I am all to blame....

Well then, Cherrioooo...

Assalamualaikumm...

End of the beginning.... or is it the other way around?

Assalamualaikum.....

Thats it! my final exam finally over, and I never said this a lot but I really satisfied by my performance this semester. I target so high this semester.. What a relieve that its over. But sadly, I got only a week holiday. On 18 January, it will be a new semester.. Yeah! bring it on! can't wait..

Really guys, this is totally boring moment for me as I only looking at my laptop and typing this word.. Bahhh.. I wish I could get back in time where all the happiness are still there. I wish for my sorrow ends now. Well, I better work it out right away!
Wait, I never said my wish for new year yet am I? hmmm... well, my wish for this new year is "I want to realize all my dream and will never let my emotion gets in my way!"

Okay then.. Hmmm... This week is a bad as the other week, nothing pathethic really, just me and my emotions, not thinking straight now.. Haha.. Well I had enough of this lousy chase so I ended it weeks ago.. Well, now I'm all free! Phewww.... what a relieve that its over, (wait..did I just said it two times?)
Hmmm..I cant think of anything right now.. Just this>>

"Never fight Fire with Fire" Meaning? Hmm... well, if you got angered by someone who is angry, dont fight him/her with anger too.. fight with love... Wahahaha... Thats how you do it master.. fire will burn bigger with fire, but will dissappear with water.. so play nice.. but dont throw water at your friend face! thats idiotic! haha... well enjoy life! take good care of every moment left in your life.. never waste a second!

Well then...Cherrioooo!!

Shahrul Azli's Commentaries of the Phase V4 : Finally, I end my chapter...

Assalamualiakum....

Well, this is my Final exam week, but its not that bad. The worst part is strictly personal regarding my life. ITS DEPRESSING THAN EVER!! My pathethic chase has ended badly for me.. I am beginning to think that she is not the one for me...

Lat night I ended my hope, because she didnt hold up her end of the bargain.. She broke her promise of not to couple with anyone for 2 and a half years... I hate myself right now..
I hate chasing shadow... BROKENHEART!!!

Ok thats it im done...
I got no mood to write anymore...

Assalamualaikumm.......

Welcome to the FUTURE...2010

Assalamualaikum...

Yeah...Finally We reach a new decade..2010! New life and new beginning. Never waste this moment, not for a second!.. Hmm...for me, this is the first time I had a new years celebration outside my hometown (penang).. This year I celebrate in KLCC. What a blast it is. Hanging out with my friends, enjoying fireworks, nothing more, nothing less..
As I stared out the window from my room, I can really feel the change in the air, well more like the change in my sense of life. This is the only year that I feel really blast out! because I can feel the change in my life, my style, my way of thinking and many other stupid bragging stuff.
I never really prepared for this year, but as we know, time never wait for us.

Do you ever feel like we kind off chasing the time all this while? I do. I feel like this world is moving faster and faster every time the sun set.. I dont know why, maybe it is time for me.. but I dont know, I cannot foresee the future. We getting older, and complicated, so make sure we prepare and ADAPT! yes thats the key word: Adaption to the surrounding always best to keep on surviving this merciless world. I doubt you guys want to hear me blabbling about this, so bottomline is, I am not ready! but i will adapt to this. I really wanna write more but unfortunately i am still in gloomy mood, because of the recent tragedy i mentioned in the commentaries.

Quotes of the week "Someone who didn't understand about life will feel he's never change at all"
I dont need to say much about this, Its all there, just read it.

Well then, Cheerriiioooo...!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!! Remember every mistakes u made in 2009 so that you will not do it again in 2010...!!

Assalamualaikum..!