Missed by a Month.. Damn..~

Assalamualaikum..

Its good to be back!! but..hmmm... Huh? I missed september? What the heck just happened?? Hmm let me tell you guys whats happen... Its HARI RAYA that month, thats why. I need to take my day off as a non-active blogger that month to seize the day, or whats left of it..

Hmmm let see here, Its been really awesome month especially during Hari Raya because I decided to go back to the Kampung (sounded a lil' weird). Its really refreshing to meet all my cousins and relatives which I didnt had time to visit. How odd to meet them after about a year of silent, I dont even know I had a new cousin's nephew. This is awesome big time, yet as we feel happy, times pass even faster. Its hell of a lifetime party for me because its gonna be a hell of a life I need to face after the holiday is over.

Wait, Its already October right? right. Here I am, "After" the holiday is over, face down on the mud. Damn it, I really felt like a missed a month. No September for me this year.. Nooooo... Just like Greenday's hit song "Wake me up, when september's end". No matter, I still got another 2 month to rearrange myself for the new year's revolution, so this month is gonna be hell lot worse. I guess I had to face it anyway. So, other than that, Its all about this college stuff hanging on balance as I need to settle all my pending debt and at the same time trying to get my MARA application approved. I rather clean down all the street in my hometown than face this things again, ever!.

And for the LIGHTER side, I think now I felt more settled than before. Its like sitting on the top of the world, except for all this problem descend upon me. Yeap, just like in the movie, with all the gunshooting, and we are not in it. Felt good. Maybe because I already finished another game, MAFIA 2. Hmmm Satisfaction. Just like high school. Hehehe.. and another thing, tomorrow is gonna be the binary code day!! 101010 or 10-10-10..hahaha.. once in a lifetime..but then, every date is once in a lifetime.So, had it your way then.

Anyway, Enough rambling like a hobo. I think I just wrapped this all up by saying; GIVE ME MY SEPTEMBER BACK!!

Well then, Cheerrriiiooo..
Assalamualaikum..

Just another Ramadhan edition.....YEAH!!!

Assalamualaikum..! Salam Ramadhan tu All!

Yeah guys! Ramadhan is here! my favorite month! The only month which I can save my money "Finally", Diet and the best thing is ALL SATAN go to PRISON! Serve you right!hahaha

Hmmm...this month has been really up and down for a bit, nevertheless ramadhan had made my day even better every day. And just so you guys know, I already got STARCRAFT 2: Wings of Liberty!! not only that I got it, I already finished playin' it. Totally worth of my money, and totally the best strategy game 2010! Im serious! Even though it only consist of 1 campaign story mode, playing as Terran, the graphic experience and storyline are quite excellent! thats a free review for you...hehehe...

Well other than that, there's nothing interesting yet to happen this month... Damn, I bet u guys think im a boring guy but thats who I am for the moment.. just lying on the chair, playing games...hahaha

Alright! Thats all I guess, by the way, please "fast"...u never regret it!
Cheeriooo

Assalamualaikum!

Calm before the Storm!! Muahahahaha!

Assalamualaikumm!

11 July, dear blog, I almost forgot about you! hehe.. nevermind, Im still typing right?
Well, this few months have been really relaxing month for me. Will you believe me if I told you that my class only 2 days a week? imagine the time I had on my grasp. I got so much to say in this blog but where should I start?? hmmm.... yes! I got a brand new laptop, Acer Aspire, ATI radeon 5470, 4 gb RAM, 500 gb space, its heaven for me! hehe.. Finally I can play all the games which require high performance. So, now I am officially 24-7 Gamers. Wooohooo!! Here is my most suggested games for any other gamers like me, Dragon Age Origins! you certainly wont regret it.

Arghhhonaut!! I totally forgot, I got a lot of assignment due this month! giving me a headache, but luckily I got a personal panadol = my new laptop! hehehe..

Other than that, like all of you guys been crazy about, its the new World Cup Season! but as I wrote this new post, Its the FINAL match already this morning. my German, already lost big time, defeated by the octopus choice, Spain. What a waste of talent!! hmmm

Well, I dont know what to say, I think this whole world cup season was just a vacation before I got a whole bunch of assignment landslide tearing me down to my knee.. Worth the wait, i guess.
Anyway, my next to do list is to get STARCRAFT 2 and DIABLO 3! then its holiday all over again! Yehaaaa!

Well then, cherriooo!

Assalamualaikum..

For your Entertainment... I Bring You Guys..SONS OF ANARCHY!!

Assalamualaikum...

Well, this entry I dedicated to my bro..Faizal Nizam.. hehe.. who kind enough to recommend me this awesome, (and I do mean Awesome!) TV Series called "Sons of Anarchy"
Here's a little review on it.

Son of Anarchy is a story about the life of Jackson Teller a.k.a Jax, the V.P of SAMCRO, or the Sons of Anarchy, a group of motorcycle fanatics, which is more than it looks.. This M.C. deal with a lot of crime-related job such as arm dealing, homicide, and so much more I cant possibly remember it all. When Jax suddenly found a book his late father wrote, he began to doubt the club's motive and thing's become more complicated each day. The struggle against The Mayan, Niners, Nords, IRA and new enemy with some league name after it. This is a very interesting movie, especially to someone who loves Harley Davidson-ish type of motorcycle.

Well now, I cant tell how much I enjoyed this movie, but let me just say, I sleep at 9 am everyday because I watch this series every night to morning! that explain a lot.hehe.
I gave it 4/5 star for this movie.. I cant give 5 because I never it to any other series, yet....hehe..
By the way, I recommend everyone who love violence and leather jacket to watch Sons of Anarchy.. Its worth the download wait! hehe...

Well then, Cherrio... I need to sleep now! just finished season 2 episode 4 now..hahaha.. :-P

Assalamualaikum...!

Perfect day for a Perfect Year.

Assalamualaikum....

Yeah here I go again... I dont know why I left this blog for so long...unattended, unvisited, undestructable.. Well I guess its just so much work and assignment to do this semester that I dont have time for this tiny little section to be filled. So, now that I got a little time, I should write it all down I guess.

Hmmm...let me see, I can say that this month is one of the perfect month (minus assignment which is totally sucks!). I finally live out to my perception of how my life gonna continue this year forward. Moreover, I can say that I am now a better person than I was last year. Wow I actually said that? It almost gruesome to hear..Haha... Ok moving forward. This month I finally manage to watch all the Heroes episodes to date. Hehehe.. I call that an achievement! Hell Yeah!

On the heavier side, I really dont know what else to say as every time I wrote something here, people tend to misunderstood what Im trying to said..Hahaha..
Ok honestly, I dont know what should I think about as all my "so called" trustworthy, had become untrustworthy with a flip of coin! thats been bothering me all month. Im lucky that this month hasnt been any worst than before, so I just say, I got served!

Its been a perfect day for a perfect year guys, so dont waste it. Believe me, I already waste my whole half year (what??) playing dumb and didnt know what Im doing, but now I realize, time is not on our side, believe me! Hehe... Where is Hiro Nakamura when we need one?!!

So, to say the least, and to say with ease, I got a perfect month, dig a better stunt, and most of all, I got all the best seat up front!

Hahah...well then, thats a rhyme to think about, Cherriooo!!

P/s: Doing nothing is doing the impossible! After all, impossible is nothing!

I dont believe in Luck, but I believe in DESTINY!

Assalamualaikum....

Its been a tiresome week for me, single-handedly become an uncle without any warning, haha...
I've been jumping and falling all over this week, so its better for me to say, im tired with my life! haha, but I dont say i give up yet.. haha..
Now I start with the good part first, hmmm, I've been feeling terrific since my last holiday at Penang, my hometown.. I had so much fun enjoying myself with my best friend. However, the best part was my niece! my 1 month old niece! so cute! Im hardly forcing myself to leave, because she's so damn cute that I cant bear leaving her..haha.. I've waited so long to have a little baby in my house and now there's one but I need to go home to Sentul! tragic...hehe.
In conclusion, I had a good time in Penang.

Now for the bad part. I wish I can stay back with my hometown friend, but the worst need to be face after all. Hmmm... I am now in a state of confusion... betrayed, and sadness.. well, this feeling never gone from my life exactly. Well, to be honest, my friendship with someone close to me once before had shattered so badly that I dont think we can never be friends ever again..
I wish this is a dream, where I can wake up and all this would had gone, but I need to face the truth that my life here, had changed. I cant think of any more reason to stay and be friend with someone who actually believe everyone can follow "her" step. Thats right, its a girl (fine...laugh at me, if you think this is funny). Im missing her so much right now but I cant do anything.
I've done so much to make this all work.. I've been thinking, probably my feeling gets in my way every time, So, I've made my choice as a heartless guy who got no feeling for her, responding to her action toward me, and this is what I get....a suprise. Well you can imagine how I felt right? If not, Imagine this: from bestfriend to enemy? how's that sound? hmmmm
I really dont wanna fight anyone, and Im not intend to do, just now I dont think everything can work out the way it should anymore..even if there is a second chance in life.. Damn..

Well, this is not a bad luck, its just destiny.. but I hope I made the right choice..
Anyway, see ya... Salam..



P/S: Its hard to forget someone who shared so many things with you....especially songs. -_-""

What I've felt, What I've known, Never shined through in what I've shown

Assalamualaikum...

Well, now everything is nearly clear in my mind, I would like to start this blog with a few word I've made this few day, "You maybe will forget what you've decided, but dont expect others to do the same".. Last few days, I went home, to my glorious home sweet home, Butterworth, at last. I can't really catch up with what had happen between my friend there. There seems to be some trouble, and my brothers beginning to separate themself from each others. I usually cared about them, but I dont know, this seems to be continuosly making me feel uneasy so I made up my mind to let them settle for themselves. Its hard to change everyone mind, even if our nowwhy2 is pure.

Anyway, I crossed a few of my friend's here, which I didnt know or dont care to know, but recently, after scheming their blog, and start talking to them, I've notice they are quite awesome! Im one tough S.O.B to satisfy but suprisingly, I really respect two of my friend, even if I never really hang out with them at all, but from what i've see and learn, I know this 1 guy and 1 girl, they really had a really interesting way of thinking. I dont know, you see, they really matured in way of thinking and the way they read people even from the outside, they look perfectly normal. So now they are in my 10 list of people i've respected so far. Haha... I hope I can meet them because I dont really see them alot nowadays.

And now so you know, I hope you guys can find someone to respect and follow their way of thinking...

Well then, Cherriooo!!

P/s: Operasi Kilang Paku : Nail Factory Operation (my new punk band name) :-)

So I doubt thee Unforgiven!!!

Assalamualaikum...

Truth finally came up! Wow I recently got shot by some people who suppose to be my friend, but yet, judging by their action, they prove that im the one who is not their friend... Hmmm... well the worst part of it, I COULDNT CARE LESS!!!

Well now Im going to speak up the truth...
Deep down inside me, I feel horribly stupid for being too nice to anyone in my life since I've gotten into college. I care about my friend. Thats me! no one could change that except if they stab me at the back!! Well guys, sorry but Im too hard to say you are forgiven..

In my previous blog, generally I post something about how my friend behave which doesnt satisfy myself, and I dedicated my previous post evidently to my HOMETOWN BUTTERWORTH also known as my TRUE gangster and yet trustfull friend who gotten themself into some trouble and need me to take action. So, I post that very blog to them stating that, when I was there (in Butterworth) they can really take care of themself, but now they ask for my help and beg me to abandon my place to help them! so I advice them through my blog which they often read.. THE WORST PART IS : Someone or a few people misunderstood my blog and say that I call my friend here in SENTUL, or KLMU, just a bunch of garbage??!!! What the fish??!! Misunderstood is one thing, but without asking me, they shot me with mockery and other rude word which I cant take. BELIEVE ME, do you really think you guys are my only friend? and I write those blog for you guys??? come on!

Sorry guys, usually I forgive those who make mistake, BUT now Im so in HELL PISSED OFF!! Shoot me! and I wont shoot you back!! because Im not the one to blame! You guys just punch me without asking first! Im totally pissed off right now so sorry to say, I need you guys to back off right now... If you say Im ego or whatever, think again! think about what you guys just said to me! How terrible I was that night.. Being labeled as "ZALIM and PUTAR BELIT!" and many other cruel thing I didnt do... Im so down on my feet that night begging for explaination, but not anymore! So listen up! I dont need friends who think they know everything about me... which they dont... because I really hate myself if I do something wrong, but hate others more if they judge me without knowing the truth... THANKS GUYS! You just broke someone's respect toward you guys....


Versi Bahasa Melayu!

Kalau tak paham bahasa terbelit2 aku.. dengar versi bahasa melayu lak...
Aku bengang se bengang2 nya sekarang bila kawan2 aku di kolej ni main ikut sedap je label aku zalim laa, putar belit cerita laa... cakap member2 sampah laa... dan macam2 lagi... sapa yang terasa tu, dengar btul2 apa aku nak cakap ni..

BLOG sebelum ni... "G-Rated Fishcaker! GROW UP" adalah ditujukan kepada kawan2 aku di kampung halaman aku yang suruh aku pulang menyelesaikan problem dia. Aku bertambah bengang bila dulu masa aku kat kampung, diorang pandai lak jaga diri, tapi sekarang kena bantuan aku lak, jadi aku tulis laa blog tu untuk kawan2 aku kat kampung sana... Korang ingat aku dah xde kawan lain ke yg aku nak tujukan blog tu? ada aku sebut nama korang?? xde kan?? Jadi kenapa nak melenting?? Aku ulang semula "AKU TAK TUJUKAN BLOG AKU YANG LEPAS KAT KORANG!!" Aku tuju kat member2 kt kampung aku.. Aku penah cakap aku ada masalah dengan member kampung tapi sorang pun taknak dengar, tau tau aku lak yang kena kianat dan dilabelkan sebagai orang yang mengata kat belakang dan cakap member2 semua sampah??
Ntah apa laa yang korang tak puas hati lagi aku tak tahu tapi aku dah cakap dah... jangan wat tahu kalau tak tahu hal sebenar!

TAPI! jangan fikir aku nak explain semua ni sebab aku nak korang faham, tak... aku cuma nak korang tahu kebenaran ni.. tapi korang tak tahu pun xpe laa... aku mmg betul2 taknak dengar apa2 lagi... aku tak perlu kawan macam ni yang bila nak mintak tolong, habis manis mulut, tapi tanpa usul periksa tahu nak fire je... aku yang tak bersalah ni tiba2 je kena! Ya Allah apa laa dosa aku ni... Dah laa tak payah dah amik tahu sekarang.. apa yang korang cakap malam tu dah betul2 masuk dalam hati, jadi maaf laa kalau aku cakap yang aku memang dah bengang tahap melampau dengan korang sebab tanpa bukti dan tanpa bertanya, sorang2 fire aku... yang elok2 je aku tak wat pape... ntah laa...kadang2 kita buat baik dengan orang pun susah...haiihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Dah laa susah nak ada orang yang percaya kita lebih dari 50% nih... macam aku jugak.. tapi apa2 pun aku tak serang orang suka2 hati aku tanpa tahu hal sebenar dulu....

Dah laa malas nak tulis dah... zaman sekarang mana ada orang nk bertanya dulu sebelum fire! semua tahu nk belasah je... mmg laa ada yg jadi gunting dalam lipatan... haihhh

P/S: Wat susah2 je baca... dah2 g wat keje... aku ni jahat wei... dah xyah peduli laa... >:-(

TAWA DALAM TANGISAN - KAMIKAZE!!

G-RATED FishCakers.. Grow UP!!

Assalamualaikummm...

Woooo....this might be one of the weirdest time I had since I wrote a blog. This time is very awkward.. I dont really know why but I feel like a "DEJA VU"... No need to explain much because I believe most of us know what this is. Anyway, Yo dude! Im back after almost 1 and a half month blog-less life. This is really disturbing to mention.Hmm... Well, like the title of my blog, I recently had one of the most stupid problem with my life..all over again..Yeap... My friend... I really salute them for being my buddy. However, the worst part is SUDDENLY, in the beginning of new year 2010 until now, most of my friend changed from a glass half full, into a G-Rated teenagers..

Its been months since they should gone fully matured, but somehow they really acted like bunch of sick-freak kid who afraid of the clown in their closet. Wow my twisting craps really make a lot of people feel dizzy, okay this is the simple version of it.. They acted like problematic kid, who dont know how to deal with problem. I guess a we are growing, we become more complicated than ever.. Hmmm... I hope they will learn soon enough.. I really concerned about them, but I can do nothing.. Really guys, GROW UP!!.. Dont be a LOSER!! Well, my last resort is I have to abandon them like I did to someone recently... Maybe its the best for them to learn all by themselves.. Sometimes we need to run before we can walk...haha..made that up..

Anyway, I guess this will end soon.. Maybe sooner than I think..hmmm.. Whatever bro..
As for me, I wanna let loose this month! I wanna get back on my gaming phase, and I DO mean GAMING.. haha.. We'll see... Damn I hate MOndaY!! Get out of my Head!!

What am I talking about for the last few minutes???!!! I dont really know.. What I know right now is Im totally messed up right now..for the reason I mention before and In a few of my previous blog.. No mood left..

I'm torturing myself here.. Can't you see I'm Bleeding?

Assalamualaikum....

Hmmm.... This is my first day in second semester in KLMU...and what a suprise! I wasted a lot of money to come to class and my class got postponed! Wow what a damn waste of time.. Hmmm... Like always, I cant get through day without singing! So, I went to karaoke and wasted money there. Stupid as always. Something else happen but I guess its too naive to said it out loud here.

Ok times up! I need to get my mood pumped up! So, I called my friend to come down and listen to me playing my guitar and suddenly I had this feeling of uncomfortable when I saw her.... Haihhhhh... Its too hard to forget about something you dying to get and lost it along the way.. I hate this feeling man.. Feel like I am a total idiot try to chase something that I will never get.
I played my act of not care but everyone know I care... Its hard to hide that kind of feeling. I guess I need A LOT of time to get over this. I hope this will be over sooner than I think.

Well... I look back at the different angle and saw a few mistakes that i made... For sure, It was me all along who always acted stupid at the wrong place and at the wrong time... This might be hurting her a lot.. She got a lot of problem and I just add another problem for her to think..
Its normal for her to act like she did to me, for I am acting kind of crazy because of this unrequited dreams... which already shattered her heart and mine too..

BUT!!!!

I know its hurting you but its KILLING me...!!

Hmmm... I guess thats all for today.. I think this can be enough to ease the pain on my shoulder..
Never blame her..please... For I am all to blame....

Well then, Cherrioooo...

Assalamualaikumm...

End of the beginning.... or is it the other way around?

Assalamualaikum.....

Thats it! my final exam finally over, and I never said this a lot but I really satisfied by my performance this semester. I target so high this semester.. What a relieve that its over. But sadly, I got only a week holiday. On 18 January, it will be a new semester.. Yeah! bring it on! can't wait..

Really guys, this is totally boring moment for me as I only looking at my laptop and typing this word.. Bahhh.. I wish I could get back in time where all the happiness are still there. I wish for my sorrow ends now. Well, I better work it out right away!
Wait, I never said my wish for new year yet am I? hmmm... well, my wish for this new year is "I want to realize all my dream and will never let my emotion gets in my way!"

Okay then.. Hmmm... This week is a bad as the other week, nothing pathethic really, just me and my emotions, not thinking straight now.. Haha.. Well I had enough of this lousy chase so I ended it weeks ago.. Well, now I'm all free! Phewww.... what a relieve that its over, (wait..did I just said it two times?)
Hmmm..I cant think of anything right now.. Just this>>

"Never fight Fire with Fire" Meaning? Hmm... well, if you got angered by someone who is angry, dont fight him/her with anger too.. fight with love... Wahahaha... Thats how you do it master.. fire will burn bigger with fire, but will dissappear with water.. so play nice.. but dont throw water at your friend face! thats idiotic! haha... well enjoy life! take good care of every moment left in your life.. never waste a second!

Well then...Cherrioooo!!

Shahrul Azli's Commentaries of the Phase V4 : Finally, I end my chapter...

Assalamualiakum....

Well, this is my Final exam week, but its not that bad. The worst part is strictly personal regarding my life. ITS DEPRESSING THAN EVER!! My pathethic chase has ended badly for me.. I am beginning to think that she is not the one for me...

Lat night I ended my hope, because she didnt hold up her end of the bargain.. She broke her promise of not to couple with anyone for 2 and a half years... I hate myself right now..
I hate chasing shadow... BROKENHEART!!!

Ok thats it im done...
I got no mood to write anymore...

Assalamualaikumm.......

Welcome to the FUTURE...2010

Assalamualaikum...

Yeah...Finally We reach a new decade..2010! New life and new beginning. Never waste this moment, not for a second!.. Hmm...for me, this is the first time I had a new years celebration outside my hometown (penang).. This year I celebrate in KLCC. What a blast it is. Hanging out with my friends, enjoying fireworks, nothing more, nothing less..
As I stared out the window from my room, I can really feel the change in the air, well more like the change in my sense of life. This is the only year that I feel really blast out! because I can feel the change in my life, my style, my way of thinking and many other stupid bragging stuff.
I never really prepared for this year, but as we know, time never wait for us.

Do you ever feel like we kind off chasing the time all this while? I do. I feel like this world is moving faster and faster every time the sun set.. I dont know why, maybe it is time for me.. but I dont know, I cannot foresee the future. We getting older, and complicated, so make sure we prepare and ADAPT! yes thats the key word: Adaption to the surrounding always best to keep on surviving this merciless world. I doubt you guys want to hear me blabbling about this, so bottomline is, I am not ready! but i will adapt to this. I really wanna write more but unfortunately i am still in gloomy mood, because of the recent tragedy i mentioned in the commentaries.

Quotes of the week "Someone who didn't understand about life will feel he's never change at all"
I dont need to say much about this, Its all there, just read it.

Well then, Cheerriiioooo...!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!! Remember every mistakes u made in 2009 so that you will not do it again in 2010...!!

Assalamualaikum..!