I dont believe in Luck, but I believe in DESTINY!

Assalamualaikum....

Its been a tiresome week for me, single-handedly become an uncle without any warning, haha...
I've been jumping and falling all over this week, so its better for me to say, im tired with my life! haha, but I dont say i give up yet.. haha..
Now I start with the good part first, hmmm, I've been feeling terrific since my last holiday at Penang, my hometown.. I had so much fun enjoying myself with my best friend. However, the best part was my niece! my 1 month old niece! so cute! Im hardly forcing myself to leave, because she's so damn cute that I cant bear leaving her..haha.. I've waited so long to have a little baby in my house and now there's one but I need to go home to Sentul! tragic...hehe.
In conclusion, I had a good time in Penang.

Now for the bad part. I wish I can stay back with my hometown friend, but the worst need to be face after all. Hmmm... I am now in a state of confusion... betrayed, and sadness.. well, this feeling never gone from my life exactly. Well, to be honest, my friendship with someone close to me once before had shattered so badly that I dont think we can never be friends ever again..
I wish this is a dream, where I can wake up and all this would had gone, but I need to face the truth that my life here, had changed. I cant think of any more reason to stay and be friend with someone who actually believe everyone can follow "her" step. Thats right, its a girl (fine...laugh at me, if you think this is funny). Im missing her so much right now but I cant do anything.
I've done so much to make this all work.. I've been thinking, probably my feeling gets in my way every time, So, I've made my choice as a heartless guy who got no feeling for her, responding to her action toward me, and this is what I get....a suprise. Well you can imagine how I felt right? If not, Imagine this: from bestfriend to enemy? how's that sound? hmmmm
I really dont wanna fight anyone, and Im not intend to do, just now I dont think everything can work out the way it should anymore..even if there is a second chance in life.. Damn..

Well, this is not a bad luck, its just destiny.. but I hope I made the right choice..
Anyway, see ya... Salam..



P/S: Its hard to forget someone who shared so many things with you....especially songs. -_-""

What I've felt, What I've known, Never shined through in what I've shown

Assalamualaikum...

Well, now everything is nearly clear in my mind, I would like to start this blog with a few word I've made this few day, "You maybe will forget what you've decided, but dont expect others to do the same".. Last few days, I went home, to my glorious home sweet home, Butterworth, at last. I can't really catch up with what had happen between my friend there. There seems to be some trouble, and my brothers beginning to separate themself from each others. I usually cared about them, but I dont know, this seems to be continuosly making me feel uneasy so I made up my mind to let them settle for themselves. Its hard to change everyone mind, even if our nowwhy2 is pure.

Anyway, I crossed a few of my friend's here, which I didnt know or dont care to know, but recently, after scheming their blog, and start talking to them, I've notice they are quite awesome! Im one tough S.O.B to satisfy but suprisingly, I really respect two of my friend, even if I never really hang out with them at all, but from what i've see and learn, I know this 1 guy and 1 girl, they really had a really interesting way of thinking. I dont know, you see, they really matured in way of thinking and the way they read people even from the outside, they look perfectly normal. So now they are in my 10 list of people i've respected so far. Haha... I hope I can meet them because I dont really see them alot nowadays.

And now so you know, I hope you guys can find someone to respect and follow their way of thinking...

Well then, Cherriooo!!

P/s: Operasi Kilang Paku : Nail Factory Operation (my new punk band name) :-)

So I doubt thee Unforgiven!!!

Assalamualaikum...

Truth finally came up! Wow I recently got shot by some people who suppose to be my friend, but yet, judging by their action, they prove that im the one who is not their friend... Hmmm... well the worst part of it, I COULDNT CARE LESS!!!

Well now Im going to speak up the truth...
Deep down inside me, I feel horribly stupid for being too nice to anyone in my life since I've gotten into college. I care about my friend. Thats me! no one could change that except if they stab me at the back!! Well guys, sorry but Im too hard to say you are forgiven..

In my previous blog, generally I post something about how my friend behave which doesnt satisfy myself, and I dedicated my previous post evidently to my HOMETOWN BUTTERWORTH also known as my TRUE gangster and yet trustfull friend who gotten themself into some trouble and need me to take action. So, I post that very blog to them stating that, when I was there (in Butterworth) they can really take care of themself, but now they ask for my help and beg me to abandon my place to help them! so I advice them through my blog which they often read.. THE WORST PART IS : Someone or a few people misunderstood my blog and say that I call my friend here in SENTUL, or KLMU, just a bunch of garbage??!!! What the fish??!! Misunderstood is one thing, but without asking me, they shot me with mockery and other rude word which I cant take. BELIEVE ME, do you really think you guys are my only friend? and I write those blog for you guys??? come on!

Sorry guys, usually I forgive those who make mistake, BUT now Im so in HELL PISSED OFF!! Shoot me! and I wont shoot you back!! because Im not the one to blame! You guys just punch me without asking first! Im totally pissed off right now so sorry to say, I need you guys to back off right now... If you say Im ego or whatever, think again! think about what you guys just said to me! How terrible I was that night.. Being labeled as "ZALIM and PUTAR BELIT!" and many other cruel thing I didnt do... Im so down on my feet that night begging for explaination, but not anymore! So listen up! I dont need friends who think they know everything about me... which they dont... because I really hate myself if I do something wrong, but hate others more if they judge me without knowing the truth... THANKS GUYS! You just broke someone's respect toward you guys....


Versi Bahasa Melayu!

Kalau tak paham bahasa terbelit2 aku.. dengar versi bahasa melayu lak...
Aku bengang se bengang2 nya sekarang bila kawan2 aku di kolej ni main ikut sedap je label aku zalim laa, putar belit cerita laa... cakap member2 sampah laa... dan macam2 lagi... sapa yang terasa tu, dengar btul2 apa aku nak cakap ni..

BLOG sebelum ni... "G-Rated Fishcaker! GROW UP" adalah ditujukan kepada kawan2 aku di kampung halaman aku yang suruh aku pulang menyelesaikan problem dia. Aku bertambah bengang bila dulu masa aku kat kampung, diorang pandai lak jaga diri, tapi sekarang kena bantuan aku lak, jadi aku tulis laa blog tu untuk kawan2 aku kat kampung sana... Korang ingat aku dah xde kawan lain ke yg aku nak tujukan blog tu? ada aku sebut nama korang?? xde kan?? Jadi kenapa nak melenting?? Aku ulang semula "AKU TAK TUJUKAN BLOG AKU YANG LEPAS KAT KORANG!!" Aku tuju kat member2 kt kampung aku.. Aku penah cakap aku ada masalah dengan member kampung tapi sorang pun taknak dengar, tau tau aku lak yang kena kianat dan dilabelkan sebagai orang yang mengata kat belakang dan cakap member2 semua sampah??
Ntah apa laa yang korang tak puas hati lagi aku tak tahu tapi aku dah cakap dah... jangan wat tahu kalau tak tahu hal sebenar!

TAPI! jangan fikir aku nak explain semua ni sebab aku nak korang faham, tak... aku cuma nak korang tahu kebenaran ni.. tapi korang tak tahu pun xpe laa... aku mmg betul2 taknak dengar apa2 lagi... aku tak perlu kawan macam ni yang bila nak mintak tolong, habis manis mulut, tapi tanpa usul periksa tahu nak fire je... aku yang tak bersalah ni tiba2 je kena! Ya Allah apa laa dosa aku ni... Dah laa tak payah dah amik tahu sekarang.. apa yang korang cakap malam tu dah betul2 masuk dalam hati, jadi maaf laa kalau aku cakap yang aku memang dah bengang tahap melampau dengan korang sebab tanpa bukti dan tanpa bertanya, sorang2 fire aku... yang elok2 je aku tak wat pape... ntah laa...kadang2 kita buat baik dengan orang pun susah...haiihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Dah laa susah nak ada orang yang percaya kita lebih dari 50% nih... macam aku jugak.. tapi apa2 pun aku tak serang orang suka2 hati aku tanpa tahu hal sebenar dulu....

Dah laa malas nak tulis dah... zaman sekarang mana ada orang nk bertanya dulu sebelum fire! semua tahu nk belasah je... mmg laa ada yg jadi gunting dalam lipatan... haihhh

P/S: Wat susah2 je baca... dah2 g wat keje... aku ni jahat wei... dah xyah peduli laa... >:-(

TAWA DALAM TANGISAN - KAMIKAZE!!

G-RATED FishCakers.. Grow UP!!

Assalamualaikummm...

Woooo....this might be one of the weirdest time I had since I wrote a blog. This time is very awkward.. I dont really know why but I feel like a "DEJA VU"... No need to explain much because I believe most of us know what this is. Anyway, Yo dude! Im back after almost 1 and a half month blog-less life. This is really disturbing to mention.Hmm... Well, like the title of my blog, I recently had one of the most stupid problem with my life..all over again..Yeap... My friend... I really salute them for being my buddy. However, the worst part is SUDDENLY, in the beginning of new year 2010 until now, most of my friend changed from a glass half full, into a G-Rated teenagers..

Its been months since they should gone fully matured, but somehow they really acted like bunch of sick-freak kid who afraid of the clown in their closet. Wow my twisting craps really make a lot of people feel dizzy, okay this is the simple version of it.. They acted like problematic kid, who dont know how to deal with problem. I guess a we are growing, we become more complicated than ever.. Hmmm... I hope they will learn soon enough.. I really concerned about them, but I can do nothing.. Really guys, GROW UP!!.. Dont be a LOSER!! Well, my last resort is I have to abandon them like I did to someone recently... Maybe its the best for them to learn all by themselves.. Sometimes we need to run before we can walk...haha..made that up..

Anyway, I guess this will end soon.. Maybe sooner than I think..hmmm.. Whatever bro..
As for me, I wanna let loose this month! I wanna get back on my gaming phase, and I DO mean GAMING.. haha.. We'll see... Damn I hate MOndaY!! Get out of my Head!!

What am I talking about for the last few minutes???!!! I dont really know.. What I know right now is Im totally messed up right now..for the reason I mention before and In a few of my previous blog.. No mood left..