Tuesday, March 30, 2010

I dont believe in Luck, but I believe in DESTINY!

Assalamualaikum....

Its been a tiresome week for me, single-handedly become an uncle without any warning, haha...
I've been jumping and falling all over this week, so its better for me to say, im tired with my life! haha, but I dont say i give up yet.. haha..
Now I start with the good part first, hmmm, I've been feeling terrific since my last holiday at Penang, my hometown.. I had so much fun enjoying myself with my best friend. However, the best part was my niece! my 1 month old niece! so cute! Im hardly forcing myself to leave, because she's so damn cute that I cant bear leaving her..haha.. I've waited so long to have a little baby in my house and now there's one but I need to go home to Sentul! tragic...hehe.
In conclusion, I had a good time in Penang.

Now for the bad part. I wish I can stay back with my hometown friend, but the worst need to be face after all. Hmmm... I am now in a state of confusion... betrayed, and sadness.. well, this feeling never gone from my life exactly. Well, to be honest, my friendship with someone close to me once before had shattered so badly that I dont think we can never be friends ever again..
I wish this is a dream, where I can wake up and all this would had gone, but I need to face the truth that my life here, had changed. I cant think of any more reason to stay and be friend with someone who actually believe everyone can follow "her" step. Thats right, its a girl (fine...laugh at me, if you think this is funny). Im missing her so much right now but I cant do anything.
I've done so much to make this all work.. I've been thinking, probably my feeling gets in my way every time, So, I've made my choice as a heartless guy who got no feeling for her, responding to her action toward me, and this is what I get....a suprise. Well you can imagine how I felt right? If not, Imagine this: from bestfriend to enemy? how's that sound? hmmmm
I really dont wanna fight anyone, and Im not intend to do, just now I dont think everything can work out the way it should anymore..even if there is a second chance in life.. Damn..

Well, this is not a bad luck, its just destiny.. but I hope I made the right choice..
Anyway, see ya... Salam..



P/S: Its hard to forget someone who shared so many things with you....especially songs. -_-""

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